April 26th, 2001



i've been reading everyone's livejournals, i'm kind of suprised about how many people miss me, even Jenny and Justin miss me... i'm just like wowies.. last night i had a plan to escape today and goto school around 2:10 and say hi to everyone...

i'm not THAT CONTAGIOUS!!!! only by kissing , coughing or sneezing on you... i can give u a hug and u wont get mono!!!

i'm kind of feeling better.....the steroids are making the sweeling of my tonsils go down, and i dont see anymore white spots, the coughing up blood is still there, not a lot though, but its there... i'm still nausious, and really weak.. i hope this thing blows over...really soon
i cant take much more of this.

i feel really bad for messing up everyone's prom stuff.. like really bad.. i'm gonna cry bad...i wish i could do something.. this uselessness really sux... i want to goto 7-11 and get some french vinella cappiccino.. thats what i want right now...

someone come visit me..
i'm lonely


literally going insane

i'm going insane....i've started to use this calm, slightly frightnign tone in my voice..the type of tone that's like "oh no, i'm gonna kill you" type of tone.. i'm going to bust out soon.. i'm going insane... someone help me... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm going to turn into one of those cat-ladys, who sits around and has 233 cats and starts throwing them at people (or that popped into my head cause it was on simpsons last night)...

i have an acupuncture apointment tomarrow... i dont feel sick anymore.. well my throat hurts a little, but the swelling has gone down and there is no more white spots, and i'm only tired and a little weak... i was gonna bust out today and goto school but my grandpa showed up... so now i cant....

i dont know what to do anymore... i'm going insane
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    aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh in my head


i updated my website..not by much..but whatever.. http://www.expage.com/divavivalefreek

i want everyone to update their livejournals as much as possible so it will give me something to do during the day and read so i know whats going on with my friends, i feel more out of the loop than i ever have, i'm going insane!!!!!!!!

someone come visit me....please
Jimmy called today...just to see how i was,it was cool.. i was like wowies..

i talked to my 6'1 gay canadian, i told him about Jeff and when Ryan(my 6'1 gay canadian) is in DC, he's gonna call and come hang with me.. he's talented..hehehehe....

i still have a crush on aaron moss.. i've been thinking about him lately...

ALSO: i got an email from my childhood friend Danna in Israel, she's now going out with my Naor (oh baby oh baby Naor)....which is cool, i dont mind, she's a good person, she's straight, i think, but whatever.. and she tells me that Naor and our other friend Lior (who's really really hot) says hi... so i'll get to hang with them when i go and maybe we can all have one big orgy (not like in bye bye birdie..not an OR-GY)...so its all good

thats my news for now...

marc called.. yay.......someone loves me...

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    4am-our lady peace


i'm still going insane....i'm starting to despise my mom, just for making me stya in the house.. even though its probably better for me......even though i feel fine.. REALLY!! i feel fine, no more swelling or spots, i even stopped coughing up blood.. i can eat solid foods again.. DAMNIT!!!

so since i'm not going to prom...whats the whole big secret that ryan had that NO ONE would tell me... everyone was like , " oh, you'll find out at prom" , well guess what, i'm not going to prom, so tell me now..

from my point of view...which isnt much..it looks like everyone's pissed at ryan for one reason or another... i dont know why.. i'm not.. hi ryan, i love you!! great comment! so funny.. i was really hoping to make out with you too and then cough on people! (chris you were right, ryan's a lesbian)............JUST KIDDING!!!!!!! i'm kidding..dont hurt me!

apparently Pillow (aka Justin) is like moving to bumblefuk Utah... which sux..now i really cant use him as my pillow..... AND STOP CALLING ME SQUISHYBEAR DAMNIT!!!!! I hate it!

i was talking to Marc (canada) andhe reminded me about stuff.. i miss my freshman, who's gonna take care of them and feed them and give them 20 hugs a day.. i'm so sad, i miss my freshman hugs!!! Mirabai, nicole, Julia, Mike, Peter, even Andrew (granted that was more of a sexual neck lick thing)......i miss nicole's neck bites (Oh BABY!) and all the hickeys she gave me... and mirabai with her unique style.. and Julia with her rosie cheeks, and mike and how he always grabbed EVERYONE's Ass..even Marc (frankels)... hehe... i love my freshman! and then there are my sophamores!

like Marc (aka Horatio), who i will miss most, my lesbian love child with Kimmy, i've known him forever, he's my baby.. i love him so much... then there's Buff (buff's hot)... and Zack, with his druggie cute shaved head now-going-out-with-audrey thing, and how i never got to rape him... not even once..

and then my juniors, which is basically everyone , caus e i'm supposed to be a junior, but whatever.. to my juniors who i love, and fuck the ones who suck.. like those fuckin bastards who block e-hall EVERY G-DDAMN DAY!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

then to my seniors....see u at graduation... june 7th...

but i'm going to miss my freshman and sophamores a lot.. who'ss gonna take care of them.. someone will, but not like i did.. they wont have that extra ounce of Viva-Love.. which of course, EVERYONE needs! gotta have that vivalove!

so anyway i'm sad.. and i need some ass, which isnt possible right now.. granted i have mono.. which i dont think i have anymore.. but we'll see tomarrow..

i dont know

i get to goto acupuncture tomarrow.. i have the urge to beat up someone... where's the ex-jon when u need someone's ass to kick.. oh yeah he's in israel too..

random thought for the day:
how's Bonnie P, and the Fernheimers??? what are they up to these days?

i know Avi's in Albany with sarah this weekend.. *wink wink* ..have fun.. hehe.. anyway

tomarrow is shabbat... and i cant goto services (granted they dont start till night anyway) ... whatever....i hope i'll be able to goto the sophamore class confirmation this year.. Marc (F) really wants me to go... i want to be there for him.. he's my baby...

JENNY!! i'm not that contagious.. u dont have anything to worry about if u come and visit.... unless we make out or something (WHICH I SERIOSULY DO NOT PLAN ON DOING WITH YOU!--no offence) you wont catch mono... u an come visit.. its ok! bring other people too!

i want people to come visit me this weekend.. someone come visit me.. hopefully kidnap me so i can sit and at least watch other people bowl...
or something... i dont know!


(i dont know what recumbent means)
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    duck and run- three doors down