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hmm......... [21 May 2001|07:27am]
[ mood | depressed ]

i'm thinking about becoming a lesbian...nothing ever works out with guys for me...they either cheat or are gay..yeah it just doesnt work out..
In becoming a lesbian instead of being bi, the only problems i would really encounter would be stupid punk assholes who have those questions like "have u kissed a girk-hehehe?? as if i've never heard it before... i dont know... i'm confused. i really want just someone to love me and get play from them..i was talking to Jeff for like 2 hours last night..he made me feel so much better...i love that boi!...an chris..i dont think i could live if i couldnt call him up at like 2am and bitch! as my dreams of marrying the only girl i'll ever love expand....which is sad and more pathetic then usual.. or maybe i should just wait until i goto Israel and then have meaningless sex with a bunch of Israeli guys...thats always fun... thn again, or not...
i dont know...i've been crying all night...no sleep... i really need a hug....and my mom is gonna come back tonight and be like "why are u sad" or "why are u giving m shit"...and i'm oing ot have to deal with that and its sad...

if i was with women 24-7, i would never have this problem......i'll give myself 2 or 3 more days to think about becoming a lesbian.

or why cant i just have mark brill...lord knows i'd be happy at least...i dont know

at least i have cookie dough

--Viva

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hmmm [21 May 2001|11:35am]
i have one main thing to say and hen other stuff:

it SUCKS BEING A CHICK!!!!!!!!



ok now for other stuff....

i've denied fedeli's resignation to leave the clique...i've given up hope on men... i'm still madly in love with kimmi... and i would really love to inject a painkiller into my veins right about now....

my mom wont be home until like midnight tonight...so if u want to come over and hang out its all good..

my tutors are coming over at some point today... i really dont want to be alone today....i desperatly need hugs.. SERIOUSLY...

i'm so depressed....i'm gonna end up baking everything in the house.....or setting it on fire..which would be bad....i've been crying for like a DAY already....like all night.... i took like 6 tylonal last nigt (which wasnt smart) and passed out for an hour around 6 then woke up 7-ish and that was annoying.....someone shoot me
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chris [21 May 2001|02:42pm]
CHRIS........WHERE ARE YOU??????????? i need you!....call me imidiately!...i love you......i'm confused....ahhhhhhhhhhh!

i need a hug!
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shitshitshitshit [21 May 2001|04:36pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

everythign has gone to shit...jenny has gone postal about matt when there is really NO NEED......he didnt cheat on you! all he did was flirt with someone else.....just shut the fuck up and deal with it....its not like he went and fucked his exgirlfriend and then got drunk and called u.. .ok.....just shut up and deal with it..

i lost my chem final... the paper.......i hav no clue where it is...me and natasha looked for it for like a fuckin hour....

everything has gone to shit.....

i seriously need chris and he is like no where to be found....i've been crying like all day...

i have soup......

i need a hug

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ari and stuff [21 May 2001|06:20pm]
i invited ari over tonight because i really dont want to be alone.....i really hope he comes.. .i miss hanging out with him.....he's a sweetie...

i have a quote:

To me, it's a good idea to always carry two sacks of something when you walk around. That way, if anybody says, "Hey, can you give me a hand?," you can say, "Sorry, got these sacks."

i thought it was funny

anyway i really hope people come over (by people, i mean Ari or chris --but chris wont come-so i really mean ari)... hehe....anyway....

i'm still sad....but getting better.....still really really confused

i made cookies yesterday... u can have some....call if u want to come over..i'm home

--Viva
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[21 May 2001|06:24pm]
"um..he's sick. my best friend's sister's boyfriend's brother's girlfriend heard from this guy who knows this kid who's going with the girl who saw ferris pass out at thirty one flavors last night"
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go here [21 May 2001|06:25pm]
http://www.xs4all.nl/~rf/evil.jpg
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i'm ok [21 May 2001|07:53pm]
i'm ok now.....my whole sadness thing is kinda over.....i'm ok......i'm really alone...my mom doesnt come home till midnight...i dont think ari's coming over....i want SOMEONE to come over.. call me at home or on my cell 301-254-5308... but i'm at home... so call me at home if u know the number or ask for it....


well i'm gonna go watch bostin public....my phones are on.....call me....bye

i NEED a HUG!!!!! Someone come over!!!!!!!!!!!
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apparently i can enlarge my penis and i didnt even know it [21 May 2001|10:20pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

OK....i've been alone for almost the entire weekend....thats the most annoying thing in the WORLD...

i debated on calling Daniel today...but then i realized that he probably hates me and never wants to talk to me again...which is sad...but i'll get over it..eventually....

still taking applications...hehe.. i guess... http://www.expage.com/dvlfapp

i still have cookies...and cookie dough

ari didnt come over tonight..but we might chill later in the week....i'm gonna try to goto the music concert a JDS on the 24th......i'm gonna get people to go with me......ihave to work at KS that daycause Marji cant...but i'm gonna go anyway...i neeed a ride.....or a bus number totake to JDS


chris-do ur overies hurt?

the whole subject hing is in regards to SPAM mail

anyway......no one calls me..i'm lonely damnit!

anyway... in regards to the whole fedeli issue... SHUT THE FUCK UP...ALL OF YOU!
jenny,Fedeli, and gini are all overreacting...

in regards to jordan and greg.. the only one who has issues is Greg cause apparently fedeli causedhimto get lack of ass... or something.. jordan's got no beef (or apparently he does in regards to his shirt)..but yeah.. IT DOESNT FUCKIN MATTER!!!!! its over, its done with.....dont worry about it anymore


ok i think i'm done


evil comes home tonight...hmmmm......
my tutors are coming tomarrow...well one of them



OH MY PANCREAS!!!!!!..........

i still need hugs cause i got NONE in the past 2 days..... AHHHHHHHHH


call me...i'm home...up all night probably..unless i sleep...but if u want to talk or apoligize for being an ass (in reference to anyone)....then call me... i always like to hear people kiss my ass for no apparent reason

(there's the bitch in me!)

night all

-_Viva

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yeah [21 May 2001|11:46pm]
so yeah..i had a conversation with daniel....jeff was right....if ur a friend u got the convo.. weird isnt it..anyway..

so yeah.. i dont know whats gonna happen with that...i'm all in favor of finding someone else though..someone who isnt gonna fuck with my head... chris suggested that jeff find me a nice JDS person.. one thats NOT an alumni...yet anyway...

evil is home....she brings glow in the dark nails....ooh shock (sarcastic)

anyway..OH daniel just called... he's "got issues"...apparently he's afraid...of something....i think everything is cool with us.. now.. i think...dont know...we're talking....hehe he wants diane's number... i wouldnt do that to him..diane's just not worth it....marc and i know..hehe..i love diane!....he's an ok guy...for a slut..

anyway...umm.....yeah...


heehee... so fill out applications.. right...

i'm bored...avi come home the 22 or 23rd...


NEWFOUND GLORY ROCKS!!!!!!

my birthday is june 10th...get me presents... heehee

my website has been updated.. new dates and stuff... http://expage.com/divavivalefreek

anyway....bye

call me
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