October 2nd, 2001


the raven by edgar allen poe....stolen from chris's livejournal

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
" 'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door;
Only this, and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember, it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow, sorrow for the lost Lenore.
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore,
Nameless here forevermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me---filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating,
" 'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door,
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door.
This it is, and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
"Sir," said I, "or madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is, I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you." Here I opened wide the door;---
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into the darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word,
Lenore?, This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word,
"Lenore!" Merely this, and nothing more."

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping, somewhat louder than before,
"Surely," said I, "surely, that is something at my window lattice.
Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore.
Let my heart be still a moment, and this mystery explore.
" 'Tis the wind, and nothing more."

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven, of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door.
Perched upon a bust of Pallas, just above my chamber door,
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven thou," I said, "art sure no craven,
Ghastly, grim, and ancient raven, wandering from the nightly shore.
Tell me what the lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore."
Quoth the raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marveled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning, little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door,
Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as "Nevermore."

But the raven, sitting lonely on that placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered; not a feather then he fluttered;
Till I scarcely more than muttered, "Other friends have flown before;
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before."
Then the bird said, "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
"Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master, whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster, till his songs one burden bore,---
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never---nevermore."

But the raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;,
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore,
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking, "Nevermore."

Thus I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl, whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o'er
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor.
"Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee -- by these angels he hath
Sent thee respite---respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, O quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!"
Quoth the raven, "Nevermore!"

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil! --prophet still, if bird or devil!
Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate, yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted--
On this home by horror haunted--tell me truly, I implore:
Is there--is there balm in Gilead?--tell me--tell me I implore!"
Quoth the raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil --prophet still, if bird or
devil! By that heaven that bends above us--by that God we both adore--
Tell this soul with sorrow laden, if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden, whom the angels name Lenore---
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels name Lenore?
Quoth the raven, "Nevermore."

"Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!" I shrieked, upstarting--
"Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! -- quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!"
Quoth the raven, "Nevermore."

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming.
And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted--- nevermore!
  • Current Music
    Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood

angela's survey

If I were a stone, I would be: amathist or ruby

If I were a tree, I would be: jasmine tree

If I were a bird, I would be: peacock or blue flamingo

If I were an insect, I would be a: butterfly!

If I were a machine--camera

If I were a tool, I would be a: electric wrachet wrench....cause those things are fun

If I were a fruit, I would be a: strawberrry

If I were a flower, I would be a: jasmine flower

If I were a kind of weather, I would be: rainbow (that comes after weather..and is a mixture of elements)

If I were a mythical creature, I would be : Venus

If I were a musical instrument, I would be : Billy Idol's first guitar

If I were a kind of profession, I would be a: videographer

If I were an animal, I would be a: snake or iguana

If I were anything in the world, I would be: happy

If I were a color, I would be: aqua-marine-turquoise-blue

If I were a fragrance, I would be: Yzar--isralei men's aftershave (it smells SO GOOD)

If I were an emotion, I would be: extacy

If I were a state or feeling, I would be: insane

If I were a vegetable, I would be a:cucumber

If I were a sound, I would be: any type of music

If I were an element, I would be: kryptonite

If I were a car, I would be a: really old mustang convertable with a v-8 engine... oh man....thats sweet

If I were a song, I would be: Sugar High--by coyote shivers... or Charlie's Big Potatoe by Skunk Anansie

If I were to trade places with another person, it would be: chris-- to see how he even begins to deal with me

If I were a movie, I would be: empire records

If I were a taste, I would be: israeli chocolate

has the whole world gone MAD!!!!!!

so yeah.....supposably this morning..i'm meeting those two guys.....paul and his cousin giovanni and they are supposably giving me a ride to school .. i'm meeting them in the village.....

oh man.... my poor phone....its still struggling...u can still call it and leave messages.....i can pick up messages from any other touch tone phone..

i woke up in the most random circumstances.... like i just couldnt go back to sleep even though i tried and i was tired.... grr

today i'm supposably going to see AC at some point to pick up the rest of my stuff... possibly see erica at the mall..

i talked to daniel for like an hour last night.....apperntly i'm a real person.. like somone who will always be there for him...which i am... and i dont know why.. our whole relationship is weird..... its ocol but weird.. daniel rocks.. ya know..for him...hehe.... he moved..so he's closer now.. uh oh.. hehe

EVERYONE IS GETTING TONGUE RINGS except me.... charlie --up at VA tech got one.. my gfriend matt is getting one today.. my sophamore mike got one.. grr...i want one....they are all doing it to torment me!.. oh man.....its driving me nuts....causei want one.....really bad

today is a day without my phone.....i'm gonna go nuts...ten to one i'll be bitching all day..... a personal problem i have to deal with

i'm gonna go take a shower.... oh man....yeah
  • Current Music
    Blink182 - I Won't Be Home For Christmas and me first and the gimme gimmes puff the magic dragon


today stacey left...kristen was kind of a bitch.. ET was freakin out and sepressed so i saw him for liek 5 min.. literally....class was boring...today inclass i wrote an essay on how much i suck at writing essays...even though that wasnt the topic..i dont even know what the topic i was supposed to write was

i went to the mall... met up with the 2 guys.. who werent as hot as they said they were.. AC and me and paula and Jay were supposed to go hang out...but AC ditched me and i dont know where Jay and Paula went...AC went to twiggs..i went home.. i did see brett and will today....will zapped me as usual.. Oh some random old guy who i see every day or other day.. was like tlakin to me today..and was like yeah ..u looked hot in that dress..and i was like umm..yeah..thanx.. apperntly he was a park ranger....hehe.... which is funny to me for no reason at all...

my phone kinda works.....but the screen fades in and out.... and the zero button doesnt work sometimes... ..but for the most part it works.i can still get calls and make calls... so its purpose is in good use...and i can copy all the numbers in my phone cook incase i do lose my phone to the evils of death.. so yeah...u can still call my cell

i avoided the pond today.. i just did..i didnt mean to..

i had my hair up in like fountain spikes.. and i tied the ties to tight so now my head hurts..

i dont wanna goto class on thursday...tomarrow will be ok..

i wish there was something i could do to help ET.. i hate seeing him so depressed.. and unhappy...

AC didnt give me my stuff......bitch.. she could have... grr

i saw brit today..she said she'd go out with me.. cause when she was with steve...i asked her and she said "when steve and i are no more, then i'll go out with you" ....so i'm like ROCK ON now.,... i hope she's serious.. cause she just rocks.. oh man....brit is SO great....she's a senior at Seneca...she's hot too!!....i love her...anyway

Skunk Anansie is so great....Skin has the most beautiful voice...EVER!!! oh man.... she rocks...and Ace is hot....anyway
  • Current Music
    tracy's flaw--Skunk Anansie

(no subject)

Tracy's Flaw

And when I feel like I'm a victim
I will come running home to you
And I will weep like I will change
When I come running home to you

I make you believe that I'm a changed girl
That I'm honest, good and pure
Then I'll drag you through my shit again
'Cos I know you'll love me more

I love how your world address my gutter mind
This reflection says it all
So now I will let you go my baby
Let you fall

And all of your rosy scarred up wrist bands
Make me crucify you more
With all of your blood, encrusted small finds
Kiss restraint and it's just cause

So see the survivor in control now I'm the whore you knew I was
Look at the cahgned girl good and pure
On Tracy's floor

I'll come running
I'll come running
I'll come running
Right back to you


so yeah.... OH Man... that was the best show.....she came back from the dead...it was cool....spike's hot.. oh man....james marsters is like the 2nd hottest man on earth...billy idol being the first....james marsters is second cause he looks like billy idol..oh man....and willow...hot lesbian witches...think about it...hehe....oh man.....is that great...

in other nwews.my phone is good...its on its way to complete recovery.. the down arrow button is still a little flaky.. but its getting better....yay...i can use my phone again....oh man...thats great

tomarrow i have class from 2-3:15 and then from 3:30-4:45.. call my cell if u wanna hang out (i love being able to say that again--granted its been what.. 2 days)..whatever

i really wanna goto that 80s shop with Tiha...apperntly its on russle ave..next to kicks karate.. i'm not really sure where that is....i know where russle ave is..cause thats the mall....but its like down the street....like way far...thats what tiha said...i dunno

peter called me today and asked my opinion on the whole diane thing....apperntly diane told him that she had feelings for himbut wouldnt go out with im until after homecoming...and peter's thought is that if she really did have feelings for him (other than friendship) that she would want to goto homecomign with him and go out wtih him.....so yeah...but thats just the way he sees it....i've been talking to peter a lot lately...thats weird......

i kinda want to talk to zach again....just to see whats up

i REALLY kinda want to talk to ET....but hopefully i'll see him tomarrow.. i really just want to be there for him.. give him support and stuff.....i dont know why... i guess its just the person i am..

my friend matt didnt get a tongue ring....he should have..

poor angela... do NOT give her a gun...hehe.. that could be a BAD combination...hehe.....i love you!

i really wanna goto moms (crystal's mom) house and just like hang out. ...... sam (mom) rocks

i'm talkin to brit..she doesnt know whether she wants to go out with me or not..i'm sad
DivaVivaLF (10:24:25 PM): so you're really gonna go out with me?

exys (10:24:31 PM): lol! I don't know!

DivaVivaLF (10:24:34 PM): damn.... hehe u should

"You remind me of........ goat cheese."

"He told me to go tanning naked... so I did. Man... my ass is burnt, my tits are burnt.... yeah... so technically i'm not sunburnt. It's UV-Lightbulb burnt. Don't think about EVEN touching me."

anyway..... oh my once oh my twice oh my oh chicken soup with rice
  • Current Music
    Nickelback - How you remind me!!s

from brit's page.and random pictures

"James Dean was meant for women. Not men." - Colleen

"When I was in 6th grade, people thought I was short. But now... they just look at my dick, and don't think i'm short anymore." - Jeff

"People with expensive cars compensate for lack of something else (their dick)." - Steve

"You're menstrating... therefore everything you say is right." - Steve

"Ooooh I'm getting cramps, i'm menstrating!" said Steve.
"Well if you are menstrating, i'm scared," I said.
"We'll see it in the headlines, 'White Boy Mensrates!'" said Steve. Then we laugh our asses off.

"I remember Fraggle Rock. I remember those plastic streamers on my bike's handlebars. But I don't remember considering Doogie Houser hot." - Lauren

"And he's just like, 'Wow. A door.'" - Me

"Um. Your cat's vibrating." - Erin

"I hope this has no effect on them in the future" - Steve, as he worries about what will happen when he doesn't wear underpants... heh.

"All the dead people.... so Bruce Willis was dead, so he could see himself, because the kid could too. So then... all the dead people said WASSAP HOMEE!!!!" - Me, again while high.

"Well if I suddenly see shirts with 'single woman: will flirt till tits fall off and guy's lose control' running rampant, and you saying that the new diamond ring you bought yourself is only 10 pounds, not 15 like you asked for, I'll want a cut of the profits." - Paul

"Eh. When I walked in here I said it smelled like bacon... and then I look to my right, and damn, well there's the cops. Arg! It's a conspiricy, I swear." - Ilyse

travis and kevin....kevin wins.... hehe

everything from here on in is stolen from Erica's picture page...cause she rocks

oh man, the old ramp gang.. me, jewboy, chris, dan, diane and jordan... oh man....good times

oh man....jordan in a dress...if he would only show off his hour glass figure...cause OH MAN...its sexy!...hehe

me grabbing diane's breasts as usual..and DAN!! oh man...dan rocks

yes that IS me and diane at homecoming 2000.....

oh man...look at us....we rock..left to right.. marc, diane, ac, steve, brit, me, fedeli (in the back), crystal, erica, and ryan ....then in the far right is ROb and like half of audrey's face
thats just so funny...jordan...cant get enough of him

i still thik this is the best picture in the world of me and ryan

i'm just stylin it...i cant get enough of it...i looked great in that tux...someone shoudl have got a pic of me and Oreo...then we would definatly be stylin..oh man

greg and julia

oh today.. i hung out with greg (my 24 yr old bitch from EBX) and Julia.. she was at the mall....she rocks.. oh man... yeah.. hehe.....she got the new garbage CD.. and Greg.....he's hot...hehe