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[05 Nov 2001|01:17am]
[ mood | tired, confused ]

i wrote this big longass entry about today/tonight.. and how greg came over and we watched like 3 movies and i made him sit through queer as folk.and stuff....and my entry got into a whole comparison between et and greg.....stupid fuckin bullshit..it got deleted.my computer frose and i had to restart it

mike schaffer IMed me tonight....he's the fuckin coolest.i know him from USY and he's a kickass DJ

fuckin deleted bullshit.....

apperetnly JD and david sent my mom an email....david has gotten dependent on one of his HIV drugs..and so thats bad...and he wants to go back to hawaii to live and JD doesnt...so hmm..... i dunno.....i miss them a WHOLE lot!!!

i got a dentist apt at 9:30am with dr kevy and class at 3:30


i have a bad pain in my side..... ouch

i'm so broke

i go sleep now.. fucken deletes and stuff..... my entry was coolasshit

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[05 Nov 2001|07:13am]
mumble grumble grumble mumble
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[05 Nov 2001|07:51am]
she's a brick and i'm drowning slowly
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[05 Nov 2001|07:54am]
i found one of my dream books where i wrote down some of my dreams.... oh man.... i might consider writing some..they are pretty strange
it also has the words me and chris made up in like freshman year..... weird.. and it has a random list of people.....and the signs that chris made that say "i make out with girls"....hehe.... i love chris
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BITCHASSMOTHERFUCKINSONOFAWHORES!!!!! [05 Nov 2001|07:18pm]
[ mood | tired, angry, in pain, confused ]

today was random..... i went to the dentist this morning.. i got two shots of novicane.....i kept biting my lip without realizing it....so now i have a cut on my lip.. i got to school...i talked to ET and lauren/laura--whatever..this cool chick i went to driving school with..and angela.. i've had fuckin nicatine cravings all day....so jeremey(jpaul) bought me a pack.. yeah i know..slap on the wrist.. i hung out with Tiha..talked to dre a little.... i went to class.. class was fine.. i passed my math midterm.. i did a lesson...i'm on lesson 20..i have to be on lesson 28 by saturday.....i gotta do shit now.. its ok though....i'm passing...i'm very worried about english.. i'm probably not gonna pass....which SUCKS ASS!!!!!..... stupid fucking essays..... grr!!!!......after my math class..i was talking to random people i dont know cause they were talking about music and movies... so i joined their convo.. aside from my wrist hurting earlier..which it did..... some bitch ran into me.. and started talking shit , then she pushed me...i didnt wanna deal with it...i punched that bitch straight across the jaw..and i re-hurt my wrist.. mother fuckin son of a----.... anyway.....so yeah...i got in a fight...and there was no one i knew there to see it.. go fuckin figure.....after i punched her..i walked away.. i turned once.....gave her an EVIL stare and she went the other direction...i went to the mall..talked to james....apperently he's being stalked....weird....who'd a thunk it....i talked to rob.. i talked to greg.. i'm still confused about what to do with the situation....i saw eric(ratchet boys eric)....he's cool....he's a funny funny guy....i'm tired and hungry....boston public is on tonight....tomarrow is buffy the musical episode..i think i'm gonna get rob to come over and watch it with me cause he's off tomarrow.. and hopefully i can tape it for chris.. i saw zach hill at the mall...he's a little gay boi...he's cute.... i sat next to him in some science class i had in high school...he was like whats up...and that was nice

quote of the day:
"I have come to the conclusion that the universe is one big cosmic practical joke on me. Everything about my life and the world around me has the sole purpose of perplexing me and leaving me utterly astounded. For example why is chocolate so tasty yet it is filled with fat and calories, and more importantly why do so many people i am good friends with not like it. All I know is that the only explanation for this phenomenon is that in truth the universe revolves around me!" -Hershel Eisenberger (he's so cool)


damn jpaul for getting britany spears stuck in my head......DAMNIT!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[05 Nov 2001|07:28pm]
[ mood | tired ]

call me if u want me

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[05 Nov 2001|09:03pm]
[ mood | tired, confused, depressed ]

i have one sharp tooth....i bit my finger and made it bleed....it wasnt pretty...

alien ant farm came out with a new single....i think its good.... he has a VERY ODD resemblence to jon stein......except the dude in AAF looks oh so much hotter...

pretty song

i'm cold....

i feel like crying and i dont know why

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[05 Nov 2001|09:29pm]
lyric of the day:

"i wanna publish zines and rage against the machine, i wanna peirce my tongue, it doesnt hurt it feels fine...."
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[05 Nov 2001|10:14pm]
[ mood | conflicted ]

ET called me...he's called me like 3 nights in a row before he goes to sleep.....i like him a whole lot.. i'm still conflicted about everything.. but yeah...ET is incredably sweet.. my parents like him too...which is weird cause they know that we make out a whole lot..so i'd think that they wouldnt.... hmmm.... AAAAHHHH!!!!!! he's so sweet.... he thanks me for unimportant stuff i do for him... i'm not so used to that.. .. usually no one notices anything unimportant i do for them...but he does..


i still feel like i'm about to cry.. i still dont know why

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[05 Nov 2001|10:22pm]
i miss my friends

it seems like the only people i hang out with now arent my best friends... like it feels like i never see ryan or erica or chris anymore.......even though i do.. it just feels like i dont....i feel like i've been doing more bad things... like drugs and drinking....to try and fill some random void of the absence of my friends..

maybe thats why i feel like crying


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anyway

chris.....have fun tomarrow.....i'll talk to you when u get back
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[05 Nov 2001|10:27pm]
IN THE END:

It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme, to remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know (2x)

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
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[05 Nov 2001|10:53pm]
[ mood | cold ]

i'm very cold

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[05 Nov 2001|11:30pm]
aside from everything else......i introduced myself to cathrine (as in daniel's gf)......granted half my face was numb at the time...she seems very sweet....suprisingly enough.....she was all like yeah" i'm mad at himr ight now...how are you"...it was kind of nice....maybe we'll end up being friends or something...weird
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