I HATE MY COMPUTER!!!!!!!!!! fuckin thing freezes every 10 fuckin minuets
i had a nice entry about how everything sucks..
i've been contemplating my friendships....wow....u guys must really despise me or something... i wish you at least tell me why u dont wanna hang out with me.....a nice explanation maybe...or is that beneath you or something...whatever.....who cares......dont call me.....i dont wanna hear it........just think about it if u dont understand.....think a whole lot
i wanna just goto sleep and not wake up.....wow that would solve all my problems...it really really would
i think its kind of strange that anything that happens to me also happens to jenny like imidiately after it happend to me...i noticed that.. hmm.....weird....
i didnt sleep well and i was really hoping to.....i'm disapointed
by the way..i love angela..she's great
i think i'm sick......i dont get sick that often, but when i do its real bad.. so fuck me..cause this couldnt come at a worse time.....
for the festivus shit....count me out as well... i dont have any money to get anyone anything and i apoligize....so dont get me anything.. cause there's no point.....and i'm sure u all dont want me there anyway......so whatever
ryan called me.... to see if i wanted to hang out...which is weird (ryan..the tall random dude who came from tennesee).... if ANYTHING i do not want to see or talk to him for a while...the whole thing at rob's was weird....
i'm hungry but if i eat i'm gonna throw up....so i'm not gonna eat.....i wonder how long this is gonna be for.....
i wanna not be here.....but i dont really have a desire to be anywhere else
i wish ET would call..i kinda want to talk to him..but i dont really want to call anyone
my computer sucks ass.....
i have the urge to leave and go smoke the rest of my pot that AC gave me......but that involves going outside ....well out of my room, down stairs and like down the street...and ya know..it smacks of effort..and ten to one will make me puke again.. so thats out..
AC was supposed to come over today and sort out pills for mom and dad (crystals parents)
i dont htink i can sleep anymore......i've slept from like 3 to like 5:30.. hmm... i SO dont want to be awake
A Friend That's Always There If I could catch a rainbow ...I would do it just for you, And share with you it's beauty On the days you're feeling blue.If I could build a mountain You could call your very own,A place to find serenity ...A place to be alone. If I could take your troubles ...I would toss them in the sea,But all these things I'm finding Are impossible for me. I cannot build a mountain Or catch a rainbow fair,But let me be what I know best ...A friend that's always there. ~ Author Unknown ~
WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HARD FOR THEM TO UNDERSTAND!!?!?!?!!
just because i come out of my room does NOT give you any reason to think that i want to talk to ANYONE!! if i wanted to talk to any of you at all i would goto you.. i'm fucking upset..it you could even fucking aknowledge the fact that i'm upset.. then maybe u could see i DO NOT want to talkt o you.. why is it that they always give me attention when i truely dont want any at all....and i want some , like a hug or somethign....they are too fucking busy.. FUCK THEM!!!!!!!
leave me alone isnt too hard to understand...well maybe for my grandma..cause a senile fucking bitch.. i know its mean..but i really cant wait until she just keels over.. that would make my life so much easier.. hey look i'm a bitch......go figure.. yeah i am if anyone didnt know before....i'm a mean fuckin horrible bitch
why cant i fall asleep... i wanna leave.....i wanna leave
i really just wanna scream at the top of my lungs.....but the neighborhood would get really mad
dont FUCKING TOUCH ME!!!!!!!!! evilfucking bitch from hell..... what gives you the right to touch my shoulder......what gives u the right to even THINK about putting a bookcase in my computer room....there was a bookcase here.. they threw it out....wouldnt that give u a fucking hint?!?!.. use your fucking brain...... i'm on the verge of hating my grandma....i swear to fuckin god
i dont htink i've ever been so angry except when i'm anywhere near them....i cant FUCKING stand it